This morning, I was feeling glum for a second. I have been running well and feel like I'm getting further but I feel very heavy. I am heavy. I'm aware I'm heavy but I don't need to remind myself of it all the time. So I was talking to one of my bestiest most awesomeist roommates ever and I told her how I felt. Her response:
"Yay for making progress with jogging, excellent work! Heck, I used to feel heavy when I jogged, too, but over time it will go away. you'll start running and your thoughts will take you to all sorts of places before you realize, "wait...Im jogging and I'm like a gazelle!!" the hardest part is getting started and you've already overcome that portion, so rock on my friend!"
I just think it's exactly what I needed to hear. She's not big by any means so if she feels heavy, I'll feel better one day.
My Besties! (My fellow F is my 5k friend and my B has done some too) |
I have started feeling neglected and unloved but then I talk to my friends and am reminded of how loved I really am. Even if Skinny isn't showing it, people love me and support me. I should say that Skinny is supporting me through texts occasionally with the 5k training....just no emotional support right now. It's just a stage.
At work, I've watched friendships really mess things up. There was a "situation" that got out of hand and one group has had to turn on each other. Now, one of the girls in the group is getting married and the rest aren't doing anything for her for the wedding. (We were only given 2 weeks notification so the office didn't have much time). I put together a few decorations and got a card for everyone to sign. As my boss was leaving, she realized that her "friends" hadn't signed it so she went and asked them to sign-saying she thought that the girls feelings would be very hurt if they didn't sign it. She was right. I'm glad they signed it.
What I've found with my friendships is that they help me through the hard times. They help me through the good times. They are the family I always wanted. I love when they give advice. I love when they ask for advice. I love when they make me laugh. I love that I know that even if I'm mad at them this week, I'll be over it in a few days and we will continue to make each others lives enjoyable.
Since it's thankful November on The Facebook, DelightfulD and I were chatting about what we would be thankful for...
DD: "I am thankful FatWife doesn't feel the need to give a daily update on what she's thankful for."
FW: "I'm thankful that DelightfulD doesn't bitch about her pregnancy"
DD: "I'm thankful for FatWife's concern as to whether or not I was still alive or if I blew up my house"
FW: I'm thankful that DelighfulD thinks I'm smart enough how to use a gas fireplace"
DD: "I'm thankful that FatWfife supplies a free fireworks show every july 4"
FW: "I'm thankful that DelightfulD makes _____ happy and puts up with a crazy mother in law all out of love"
DD: "I am thankful that FatWife provides a nice, somewhat loving home for a cat she can't stand"
FW: "I'm thankful that DelightfulD lets me bitch about said cat"
DD: "I'm thankful that FatWife counsels the destitute and downtrodden every day at her job"
After that...we started getting silly.
But for 10 minutes, I laughed so hard, I forgot the bad aspects of the day and remembered how the little things in life are free. Friendship is free. Soak it up!
Soaking up friendship at a photobooth... |
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