Friendship+Work Hours=Fun!

That's actually a new mathematical equation that I have solved.

I had a friend from college drop by today and job shadow me. It was awesome. Not only did she get to see what I do for a living but she learned stuff. She was completely impressed by what I did and I found it hilarious. I take for granted my knowledge mainly because I feel I have a lot left to learn before I can retire.

It made me truly enjoy my job. You don't realize how good you have it sometimes. During lunch, I took her to the cafeteria and we met with another girl that use to work with me that is now working at the hospital instead. She gave her insight on what you can do in the clinical world of dietetics.

I also introduced her to my boss who discussed other career in nutrition ideas. The more I heard about what we do and what we don't have to do, the more I appreciated my job.

The day went by super fast. I couldn't believe it when it was time to go home.

I know that some days are terrible and I dread aspects of my days. Other days are fantastic. All and all, life's too short to not enjoy what you do...just like AwesomeBoss always told me!

Clean underwear....under where?

So seriously...how is it I never can find what I'm looking for when I'm getting ready for work. It's like I'm unable to function. I wake up fine and then just feel like I can't figure out what I'm doing. Seriously!?! I've been working at this job for 4 years. I should know my own routine by now!

This morning I woke up and found that Skinny had not put the clothes in the dryer like I thought he had. This is my fault. I heard the dryer going and thought "Aw....Skinny changed the clothes over." I was shocked when I found that Skinny had not...instead he had used the dryer and a dryer sheet to make one shirt smell good.

The icthy.b wife in me put all the wet clothes in on top of his dry and fresh smelling shirt. Because lets face it, a dryer sheet should be used for a load of clothes not a single shirt.

ANYWAYS, my whole day was off. Again, this is not his fault. I should have known better than to think he was helping with the laundry. I had to fish through a pile of clothes that don't really fit for a pair of underwear that was dry.

They were tight. Tight with my muffin top hanging over cause my underwear was cutting off my circulation. I wore a jacket over my outfit so no one could tell how tight they were but I knew.

It did humor me that this jacket hasn't been worn since 15lbs ago and people kept saying "I can really tell you're still losing."I had gained over the past month so that was a confidence boost.

Thank you SkinnyHusband for not drying my underwear so I had to wear older tighter underwear that embarrassed my stomach and I hid behind a jacket which ended in compliments.

You never know where life is going to take you!

These are too small to be mine but I hope to be that tiny one day!

Obsession....

Last week, Skinny said I could get another dog. Now we know how much I love my dog...to have two would be amazing. Since then, I've been super focused on trying to find one that fits in our family.

I found one that needed a home at a high kill shelter, drove all the way down there to discover it was already adopted.

Then I spent 3 hours filling out another application for a rescue only to get an email as soon as I sent it in that the dog we found had been given to another family right before they got my application.

I should take this as a sign of we're not ready. I spend a lot of time with my little man. I don't know if he would handle having 2 happily or be jealous.

Since our second let down, I've been trying to find another one. I have spent all day googling. I don't want to miss getting my little girl.

Maybe something will happen and we'll get an email that the rescue has one for us!

Anyways, it's been a good weekend.

My Awesome Dog saying "Mom....I need a sister"

Why the binge?!

I keep having days of good and days of bad. The past 2 days I've binged. I don't know what triggered it.

Yesterday, I went to the grocery store. I was buying supplies for a dessert I was making for my Father in Law's father's day dinner. Before I knew it, I loaded up the cart with CRAP-little debbie cakes, pepperoni pizza, cheez its...

I got in the car and broke them open. I couldn't even wait to get them unloaded in the house. Before I knew it, I had eaten 3 snacks. That's insane. That's 1000 calories! I tried to lessen the load by hiding them. That worked for the rest of the day.

Today, when I got in the car, I reached for where they were hidden and BAM...food consumed. It's like I'm old Karen. Not this new happy and healthy girl. I tracked the food. I would gain 10lbs in 5 weeks at this rate.

I'm so disappointed in me.

I'm still thinking the trigger was what I knew I was going into. I also went to the store hungry. This morning, I felt trapped and alone and vulnerable.

The power of rest and relaxation

I'm trying something new recently. I'm trying hypnosis. I'm not really sure if it works or not but it helps with relaxation. I started doing it during my lunch break. I can eat my lunch in between clients but the relaxation is amazing!

I always feel like the day runs smoother after I've finished. I want to accomplish more. I want to eat better. I shall continue this even if it doesn't "work" the relaxation works!

To be happy like a dog!

I know everyone thinks they have the best dog in the world, but I know I actually do. He's a mess really. I can't imagine our life without him.

What makes this guy so cool? He's slightly neurotic. We made the mistake of playing with a laser when we first got him so now he's nuts about shadows and flashes and lights. We also made the mistake of getting him to dig on pillows. All of this resulted in a crazy neurotic but amazingly cute dog.

My neurotic little guy trying to find the light from the flash.

He pees and poops outside. And he trained himself within a week of living with us to do it. He has had an accident maybe 10 times total including when he threw up cause he was sick a few times. He even lets me know when he needs to go out-whines by the door. Whines loud if it's urgent.

My dog is smart. As soon as he comes inside from the heat or if he's been running a lot, he runs to the ac vent and lays on it.

He leaves lots of nose art on my windows so everyone can see that my dog is amazing.

One of my favorite things about my dog is his lack of need for us. He gets excited when we get home, but when he's wanting to play, he'll toss the toy for himself and run after it. He'll take off running all over the house.

It's what I find amazing about my dog. MotherDearest has once said that he is the happiest dog she's ever met. He's fearless and happy. I strive to be that happy one day.

Sometimes the days are harder than other but I find laughter helps and smiling makes life much easier.

Touche Body

Somedays are just bad when it comes to the diet. I had the pizza last night...almost a whole one...I don't know what happened! It was like the fat kid escaped and not only did I eat the crappy pizza, I ate the ice cream too.

And now it's 2am, I'm sitting on the toilet hating myself. Mentally, I'm fine. Physically, not so much.

It's like that girl that typed this blog 2 months ago escaped and the fat one she was trying not to be came back. Mr.Body said "no bitch...we don't need that girl around."

I know it is because of my medication. Knowing that doesn't solve the problem though.

What's a little funny to me is the fact that I don't want pizza for a while but we are eating with SkinnyHusband's family tonight and they are picking one up before we come over. :/

OTTNOFW

No wonder I'm fat!

My mother is a couponer. I love that about her. It's kind of my fault. I use to coupon a lot-especially when I was single and lived near a certain grocery store. Now, I send my mom the coupons and she fills up my house.

This weekend, she brought up a load of stuff. It's lovely stuff but now we have excess in the house. She brought up 5 things of cake mix and 2 things of brownie mix. She brought up frozen pizzas and frozen burritos. She brought up dozens of eggs and ice cream. SkinnyHusband already broke into the brownie mix and the ice cream and the burritos. I'm having trouble reminding myself that I don't need that crap.

It's hard sometimes to look around, realize that what everyone else is eating isn't what you need to eat. I just want to sit back and say "Well he can eat it!"

I should know by now that if I eat out, and I don't exercise, and I eat dessert...I will gain. In fact, I have gained. I've gained 5lbs back! Tomorrow, I'm waking up early and walking. I don't care if it's raining or if it's snowing or if it's 100* at 6am, I'm walking.

I kind of want to do the C25K app...but not sure I'm ready to mentally aim for that yet.
Maybe next week?

Now, to walk in the kitchen, get some water, and NOT get something delicious.

Falling off the wagon

I haven't been "thinking" much lately. I felt I was doing fine with life. Walking, swimming, kind of eating alright. Yesterday, I was leaving to go out of town with my boss when she asked what I wanted for dinner. When she told me what she had to eat that day, I told her what I had eaten and she says "Fallen off the wagon huh?"

I just looked at her. I have! I've fallen off the wagon! And the worst part for me was that I didn't even realized it. I knew I wasn't losing weight. I was staying around the same a pound here or there but overall, around the same.

I haven't been eating my fruits and vegetables. I haven't been drinking my water. I haven't been doing ANYTHING that I'm suppose to do-other than exercising.

I guess that's what happens when you take the careless route....

My goal today: EAT FRUITS AND VEGETABLES!

Family Fun In The Sun

This past weekend, some of my family was in town from Delaware. I love this family dearly. My Great Aunt is always a treat and my cousins are wonderful. I met them at the Washingon Duke Inn and enjoyed the golf tournament. Then, we went swimming followed by a family dinner and chilling while talking until late.

It was such a relief to enjoy quality family time. I forgot how much I love being around them. They are so easy to be around. We went swimming and laughed and played. It was like being a kid again.

I'm really happy that I got to spend time with them. I spend a lot of time with SkinnyHusband's family.

I found that from that adventure, all I want to do is swim. It felt like my childhood was not over. If it wasn't raining right now, I'd be in the pool!

The Sacrifices We Make(***Delete if Revealed***)

I really love SkinnyHusband's siblings.  I think of them like they're my own. My sister in laws and brother in law make me laugh. One of the best things we do is we have sibling night. BeatuifulSister's boyfriend also comes cause he will be married in before you know it. When the siblings are all together, it's fantastic. The moment MotherDearest shows up, it gets more stressful. Sometimes it turns out fine. Sometimes, it does not.

We've been asking brother in law to host for a while. He finally decided to throw an event but he invited the whole family. I was planning on going and bringing a sweet treat. When I went to ShySister's game, MotherDearest was discussing the party at Brothers. Today, she called to tell us what we would be doing for the party. She suggested either a dessert or an appetizer. When SkinnyHusband said we would figure something out, she told us we would be bringing texmex dip.

I'm all for helping when asked. Brother In Law didn't ask for help. MotherDearest overtook the situation and it is no longer BrotherB's event. It's still at his house though.

I really wanted to go to his house. This is the first event I've been invited to there. I wanted to laugh and play with his doggie and the siblings. I'm going to miss out by not going.

But I'm aware that MotherDearest with cause me anxiety and stress with her high anxiety and stress.

The good news is I will be able to spend the afternoon with my family going home to see them for the first time in a while. I will be able to enjoy a calm evening with mine.

Sometimes you have to accept your weaknesses to find happiness. For me, I know I can't be around MotherDearest right now. One day, I might be able to admit to her how much she frustrates me but I know right now I will just eat instead. Here's to happiness and confidence!

(The good news is I talked to BeautifulSister and she's unable to go as well so it isn't a real sibling night!)