Why the binge?!

I keep having days of good and days of bad. The past 2 days I've binged. I don't know what triggered it.

Yesterday, I went to the grocery store. I was buying supplies for a dessert I was making for my Father in Law's father's day dinner. Before I knew it, I loaded up the cart with CRAP-little debbie cakes, pepperoni pizza, cheez its...

I got in the car and broke them open. I couldn't even wait to get them unloaded in the house. Before I knew it, I had eaten 3 snacks. That's insane. That's 1000 calories! I tried to lessen the load by hiding them. That worked for the rest of the day.

Today, when I got in the car, I reached for where they were hidden and BAM...food consumed. It's like I'm old Karen. Not this new happy and healthy girl. I tracked the food. I would gain 10lbs in 5 weeks at this rate.

I'm so disappointed in me.

I'm still thinking the trigger was what I knew I was going into. I also went to the store hungry. This morning, I felt trapped and alone and vulnerable.