A walk down memory lane

Last night, SkinnyHusband and I were reading "Hungry," which is about a man's struggle with compulsive eating. SkinnyHusband started talking. It was almost relieving to hear him talk about some of his moments and how we both seemed to relate to the author.

It was a moment where we both confided in our eating secrets. What amazes me is that I still don't know all of my triggers but I know one of them is less powerful.

I started therapy a long time ago and over the course of 2 years, I've learned the following things can set me down a path of crazy eating:
    -My coworkers: I've learned we'll never be friends but I am fortunate to have a job.
    -My education: I never got my RD but after working in the field, I'm not sure I want it. If I focus on this failure, I spiral. Most of the time, I focus on the positivity of my job choice.
    -My family: living 2 hours away and missing out family events use to make me feel alone and unloved. Now, I know it's my choice and it's only 2 hours.
    -SkinnyHusband's family: I love them...but I'm still learning the family. I've been with my family for 28 years and with his for 4 so it's an adjustment. If I focus on the desire they have to be family, I tend to survive.
    -SkinnyHusband: Learning to live with someone when you're use to living independently takes time. Most days it's wonderful-that's the good thing!
     -SkinnyHusband's Weight: For 2 years, I've watched him shrink down so effortlessly. The bitterness of my failures and the jealousy of his success has created a monster that wants to eat when she thinks about it.

After last night, that last trigger is off the list. I've made peace with this notion. We're completely different people. His main trigger is no longer a concern for him. He did the transformation slowly. He loves eating healthy and the weight loss encouraged activity. He hasn't done it to look better. He's done it to feel better and because he wasn't inspired to eat irrationally anymore. I'm no longer jealous of him or bitter about how I have failed. I'm proud of him and excited for me. There are store more triggers for me to discover but the big ones are under control. Here's to a happy and healthy Friday!