Teenie, Minie, Skinnie,and Tot

When I was 190lbs in 2006, I thought I was HUGE. At the time, I felt like an overinflated balloon. I knew I had lost a lot of weight but I still felt massive. Looking back, I was not huge at all. I was 30lbs overweight-not even obese! That's nothing compared to being 140lbs over weight and "class 3 morbid obesity"...which is what I am now.

How could I feel so large when I know I wasn't.

Size is perspective. At the time, I was comparing myself to my best friends. The people I saw the most frequently and I thought of as "healthy size."

Teenie was 5'5" and 102lbs (BMI 16.97)
Minie was 5'3" and 103lbs (BMI 18.24)
Skinnie was 5'2.5" and 98lbs. (BMI 17.6)
and Tot was 5'1" and 97lbs  (BMI 18.33)


But next to them, a 5'7" 190lb girl was a giant!
These girls were my best female friends. They were always very encouraging and very supportive of me. They never judged me or told me they were worried about how fat I had gotten.

My goal for this week is to put it in perspective some more. I will never be as small as Teenie, Minie, Skinnie, and Tot. They are all 4 naturally thin. Some are active, some are sedentary. All eat different styles of foods and don't turn down meals. They all have small frames and features. I'm not them. I will never be them. I want to continue to remind myself what I'm doing and who it is for...ME!

While putting it into perspective, I want to see myself not as a fat blob all the time but I person who wants to live and become more. I'm going to work on not comparing myself to my friends. I have some that are larger than me. I have some that are smaller. But they are who they are-just as I am who I am...