I am really hoping that my mother in law never finds this blog. I say that for one reason, she's a huge trigger for me. Part of my reasoning for needing to secretly blog is this whole feeling that sometimes I can't express myself completely. I have a slightly secret world that I live in. I don't want to frustrate anyone or annoy anyone or piss anyone off.
Online, I can do that because I don't know you folks.
Yesterday, I contacted my ShySister to ask her when her next softball game was and she informed me that it was that night. I asked what time to be there and she told me it started at 8 but she wouldn't be there until 8:30. When she came, my mother in law informed me that they were late because she had her band concert. As soon as I heard that news, I tensed up and shut down a bit. I didn't want to appear rude or frustrated so I responded with quietness.
My mother in law is a spread the news kind of woman. I try to go to my little sisters games and concerts and events because I think it's important that she feels loved and connected to her older siblings. She is a lot like SkinnyHusband. If you ask him something, he answers the question but doesn't add information. It would have been easy for me to say "The game starts at 8 but I won't be there until 8:30 because my band concert is before." ShySister literally answered the question-she would be there at 8:30.
I've asked my mother in law before when was ShySister's next concert. I've asked multiple times always answered with "I'll let you know when I know." ShySister is only 13. Her life is focused on friends and popularity and not being embarrassed by her parents right now. She doesn't normally inform us of anything but always is happy to see us.
When I asked BeautifulSister if she knew about the concert and she admitted that MotherDearest had indeed told her. She thought everyone knew. BeautifulSister said "I think she's been stressed lately so she probably forgot to mention it."
She has time to mention her new patio furniture 4x's and the free vacation she won multiple times but not let her son (SkinnyHusband) know that his sister has an important event.
This isn't the first time MotherDearest has done this. It won't be the last. SkinnyHusband is use to this kind of behavior. I don't know if I will ever be use to it.
MotherDearest is always more stressed. Her life is always more important than ours. She always has SOOOOOOO MUCH going on. She always has deserved a vacation more than anyone. Her husband is the worst (Which is bullshit cause he's a great man-I love my father in law...don't know how he puts up with it all).
The whole time we were there she tried to talk about stuff I could care less about and I was unable to stop myself. She wanted to discuss how she should decorate her patio now that she has furniture. She wanted to talk about how terrible her day was and how dramatic
Skinny and I never had a honeymoon. We couldn't afford it at the time. We both work all day to live a decent life. I'm actually happy with our life. We spend a lot of time together. We make each other happy. We try not to brag about whatever we've bought or live extravagantly. He's my everything.
My MotherDearest failed to provide us with plans. I failed to plan on seeing her. I failed to figure out my escape from words I knew she was going to say. And what ended up happening was I ate an extra slice of pizza. Therefore I failed to stay strong because I failed to plan on seeing her.
There is no result to this day. It's just a rant about life and failures. But thanks for reading and I hope tomorrow is better.
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